Not that I think I'd do something dumb, but I can't stop thinking about suicide. There were definitely moments when it felt imbalanced. The last 4 weeks have been sickening. But to say that she was brave was like a slap to my face every time someone said it to me which was a lot. But I am sitting here, right now, and the sudden realisation of what I have done is hitting me square in the face. They were worried about how it would affect them: Remember how you felt 10 days ago?
One day my friend Alexander and I were talking about how hot my wife Estella is. Thanks so much for your reply. She would spread her legs and fuck the shit out of my fingers and suck my cock like a dirty whore. So, I can understand Thomas a bit.
I felt I changed and was here for awhile now, but she was gone. I have been married 32 years. But now, her attitide is that my "problems" will always ruin everything, so no matter how hard I try to make something good, she is just WAITING for me to fail. I was enjoy every minute of it. It's really counterproductive to make yourself miserable over something you need to take care of now that you'll still need to take care of if you two divorce.
My wife caught me balling my eyes out in my shed this afternoon, I just need some space and my shed is my shed, she walk past looked said nothing. I ended up getting up and watching tv until I was so exhausted that my head felt like it was going to explode. The last 4 weeks have been sickening. But the oldest went into school wearing a T-shirt that said, "Some people are gay, get over it. I am glad that you are working through the things. These people are described as your best friend and you would willingly raise their kids and, if you had to, give them a kidney. Thankfully, there was some support out there.